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  • Barbara Clayton Price

SEQUESTERED PSYCHOTHERAPIST

Updated: Jun 29

Day 107

Sunday, June 28,. 2020


I went out today and it was an interesting experience. I didn't get out of my car, and we only went to a grocery store curbside pickup. The person who came out with our groceries was wearing a mask, and he loaded the groceries in the trunk. We did the same thing at another grocery store. Easy peasy.


I saw a man there, returning bottles with his son. The son looked maybe ten years-old, hard to say. No masks. Enough said.


I hadn't been to a grocery store in three months. I mean ... I haven't been in the parking lot of a grocery store in three months. My daughter was driving, so I had time to take everything in. I nearly had an out of body experience, as I watched all the people, of all ages wearing masks of all kinds, going into the store. I'd seen them online, but not in person. My first time seeing what many people have been doing for weeks. It was absolutely surreal. I said solemnly, out loud, "this is what our world has come to"?. People going about their day. Some rushing, some walking slowly, people buying groceries in masks.


I've been sequestered in my home for so long. I've been making the best of it. I've been content most of the time, living as I do. As I've written before, I always have many things to keep me busy. One of the things I do, is to read online newspapers. I keep up with what's going on, by reading reputable articles, from reputable sources. I'm careful not to inundate myself with news, because it's not healthy mentally to absorb so much negativity. I see people wearing their masks, and I am on a rampage, telling people to wear them. I wear one when I'm outside, around the condo. Too many neighbors want to talk to me, and I just can't trust that they won't get too close. I rarely see one of these elderly people wearing a mask. I do distance myself, but just to be safe, I wear my mask. In this environment, I don't see lots of people wearing masks.


I don't know. Maybe it's because I'm finishing the book, Aldous Huxley's, Brave New World, for the second time. I read it in high school and was compelled to read it again recently. The future, in that book, is not one that anyone would ever want to be in. Maybe that's where my mind went when I watched the people going in and out of the large grocery store. They were nearly robotic, as they walked past wearing their masks. No smiles were seen. No one was laughing, few were even communicating with each other. It did feel dystopian, I wasn't so far off.


I don't know. Maybe it's because I'm finishing the book, Aldous Huxley's, Brave New World, for the second time. I read it in high school, and was compelled to read it again recently. The future, in that book, is not one that anyone would ever want to be in. Maybe that's where my mind went, when I watched the people going in and out of the large grocery store. They were nearly robotic, as the walked past wearing their masks. No smiles were seen. No one was laughing, few were even communicating with each other. It did feel dystopian, I wasn't so far off.


The new normal. It's going to be like this for a long time. It will take months to get the vaccine, and the more people venture out of their homes, the more others will be contaminated. It's only logical, and science supports that. I believe that most people who are wearing masks and social distancing, will stand a much lesser chance of catching the virus. It's all the other people congregating and not safely, that will mostly spread the disease. The problem is that they are prolonging the virus, and contaminating others. I'm not sure how we can change this. Other countries have arrested, or fined people not adhering to the rules. That frightens me right now, with all the police violence happening in our country. I'm concerned that the black and brown people may, once again, be punished more strongly.


This post has not been very positive, and I apologize to anyone who may be reading it. I continue to have hope and a positive attitude for the future. I really do know that Covid-19 will not last forever. I just look forward to a time when I can see the smiles on people's faces.


Be safe and remember that this will not last forever and black and brown lives matter.


Photo from Time Magazine, May 2020

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